Hebrews 6:13-15 When God made his promise to Abraham, since there was no one greater for him to swear by, he swore by himself, ¹⁴ saying, “I will surely bless you and give you many descendants.”^{[a] 15} And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised.

I have been really struggling at work.  It is not just the work load right now, yet is is high.  It is the emotional atmosphere.  Because of cuts in the state of Kansas mental health budget, we had to redo the incentive pay structure which went over like a lead balloon and then there was another cut.  When I do supervision with my staff some of them start crying.  They know it was not me, but their lives are financially affected.  Looming is still more uncertainty.  Some of my staff are leaving which makes more work for everyone else and I can't hire.  Less than a month ago, the state bulletin came out with the second cut and I had just hired 2 new staff and changed the job description of another staff and I feel personally responsible.  This only scratches the surface.  We are completely overhauling the treatment modality from each therapist using their own specialized therapy to incorporating a Trauma Systems Therapy and all new paperwork.  More change!  Also some have used our company Short Term Disability policy and I am fighting with HR on how they calculated the staff salary.  My Overland Park office has to move locations in a month and my Wyandotte County office has no 3 desks for 5 staff.  When we look for positives we are clouded by all the negative.

I was moved to this division last July.  I thought by now, things would be better and calmed down but the change has been constant and the pay cuts unexpected.  I just can't emotionally remove myself from their pain and I fear it may get much worse. 

Once a long, long time ago, I remember I was in more more pain than this.  I remember finding a button on the floor of my living room when I thought I couldn't take any more pain. It looked just like the picture above with the rainbow and said God keeps His Promises. I clung to the promise of God.  Lord, I pray for each of my 25 staff.  Right now the future seems scary for them, but God has a perfect answer for each one of them including me.  Help me to wait patiently like Abraham and know that you keep Your promises.